Mamamama.

I used to be a big cry baby. I was always the shy one in the family. Seriously, I was just a buzzkill HAHA. Damn, don’t even get me started on my self-confidence growing up. It was probably my mother who helped me get out of that. Growing up, I always remember her telling me how I’m the only one who can stop myself from having fun. It took probably 14 years, until I got into high school to take into account what she had been saying to me the whole time I was growing up. She’d tell me “Who cares what other people think? Who cares if you suck at something? If you have fun while doing it, then do it!” She gave me the mentality that pretty much abolished how I felt what others thought about me. Always keeping too much to myself and never having fun. I was so boring, I wouldn’t even want to be my friend back then hahaha. Now even if I don’t know you, but you’re in the same car with me, you’ll probably hear me singing every song that comes on (Very badly). I don’t know how to do a lot of shit, but if it’s fun I’ll let loose and try. I’m not even self-confident now lol. Second guessing myself all the time. But it sucks not experiencing new shit because I’m a shy person. I eventually come to the conclusion I won’t even remember how retarded I look 10 years from now, so I just tell myself to fuck it LOL. Hopefully it’ll become second-nature to have fun, eventually. Thanks ma for teaching me how to have fun and only live for myself, not others!

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